keep going until you've run out of cake As long as you're still alive. I'm sorry to hear that but I'd definitely take LauriePriest up on their offer. If nothing else it might make you feel better about your situation. I don't know how practical it is but have you thought about doing freelance work? Or something a little less conventional like writing/recording tutorials for magazines like 3D world and for sites like this one; I definitely know I could learn a lot from you, your modelling skills continue to amaze me.