Hi Guys,

it's been a while, since I last posted anything, I've been dealing with a lot of inner demons, it doesn't help that life keeps kicking me in the teeth, but I digress, I've been suffering with depression for quite some time now, it's something I've hidden for the longest time, I've always felt embarrassed by it, some days are better then others, it's hard to put into words the havoc this illness ( I hate using that word) it has rote on me,

at my lowest I was miserable out of shape and hated myself, I felt like a complete loser, I graduated with a decent degree, but I just couldn't land a job, in the 3d industry or otherwise, It was debilitating, i'd never felt like this before, i've always had my path set out from me, school, college and university, but upon graduating, that was no longer the case, I thought employers would be climbing over themselves to get at me, boy was I in for a rude awakening, they didn't care about the piece of paper I had spent 3 years working towards, it was meaningless to them, they wanted experience, and at that time that was something I lacked,

in time I got kicked in the proverbial teeth and learned how to give a decent interview and landed a few jobs here and there, I even landed a job as a modeller for a well known company, things were going fine,
but alas my happiness was short lived, my contract as a modeller was ended, not on bad terms, but because the project was completed, and I found myself out of the job, I did land another job fairly quickly in retail, I hated every second of that job, the manager was on some power trip and would constantly have a go at the staff, no one liked her, after about 9-10 months I quite, i'm willing to but up with a lot of BS, but when you insult me in front of customer and then have the nerve to laugh at me, i'm not going to be a happy bunny, I quit in devastating fashion, I wont say how,

and once again I found myself jobless, depression wrapped its claws around me, and dragged me into that dark place, I was there for a while,

it was at this time I watched a interview of Pat Morita, aka mr miyagi, and the struggles he went through in life, he said something that struck a cord, if he could overcome all those things, then I should be able to as well,

I started exercising, it was hard but after I while I could feel myself climbing out of that dark place, its been a few years since, and although i'm not completely cured, I dont feel like i'm not a complete loser,

i've been doing weekly challenges to keep me motivated and on the right path

I've been documenting my progression, challenging myself, here's what I've done so far,

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I know that was a long rant, but it's something I've been wanting get of my chest