Bullets life reassessed
well what a week!!! Talk about stress and worry and lots of thought and tears in between. A week of humble and solemn reflection on what life has become for me and how I will change some of it at least.
I visited a GP up here in the desert of Western Australia with an issue. I was then informed I MAY have either prostate or testicular cancer. I had some tests and waited for my results. 4 days of worry, stress, all the usual human emotion. Then I got a call from the Med centre to attend ASAP to get my results. I can tell you the tone of the call and the way it was delivered gave me a thump in the heart.
LUCKILY it was nothing more than to get the results and be told...thus far...the chemmy markers indicate I am in the clear. Though I still have some more tests when I return home I will still get a 2nd opinion.
In my reflective state, I wondered about my 5 kids...especially my little angel Kailani who turned 1 recently. My partner and how much, despite disagreements...I am still very much in love with. My family, my friends (including you guys of course) and my pets too.
As most of you know I am a Surveyor by trade, I have spent a good 50% plus up to 80% in the last 9 years working away from home. This usually (apart from the last 12 months) is a 4 week at work and one at home. A hard slog and a long time away from loved ones. All this to earn a better dollar and try and get somewhere in life.
I have however changed this train of thought, I have handed in my notice and by Xmas will not travel away for work. I have come to the conclusion there is too much that I have and do miss out on because of my job. My Kailani has started walking...again another child I did not see start the vertical stuff. Out of 5 kids...4 I have only been there part time. After this scare...I have said "**** it, **** work" and I am going home.
I will be undergoing a hypnotherapy session and giving away the bloody cigarettes too I can tell you. I wont have a job when I get home...but I dont bloody care, my wife and kids are more important to me than money or career.
Guys and girls...if you have issues that need medical attention...PLEASE see your Doctor. There are too many stories (men in particular) that deny the need and end up dead.
Thanks for listening
Respect Ant xx
"A Darkness at Sethanon", a book I aspire to model some of the charcters and scenes